Eleana's Testimony

[Continued - Eleana is now known as "Healed."]

Sabbath night I went and talked to Michael about the things upon my heart. He did not tell me I had to go live with my mom and dad for awhile but He did tell me that I might need to go resolve some things. He told me to let Him know what I decided. As I left I knew I needed to go and live with my mom and dad for a few days. The next morning I went and visited Michael and told Him what I decided. And I shared with Him what had come to me the night before: “I am going to face the devil and he shall flee from me. He shall no longer have a hold on me.” Michael told me that after I left Sabbath night He thought, “Eleana needs to go face her self.” He asked me if I wanted Him to drive me in, and I told Him yes. So He took me in. He told me, “Father's doing this. So, don't worry about it.”

A lot of things opened up to me and changed for me while being at my mom and dad's. At first, my heart ached continually, and I longed for Father to deliver me. I dealt with many fears and I struggled much.

That first Monday morning Father said to me, “It's ok little one. It is necessary. I AM here holding you. You can trust Me. I will not let you go. I AM with you. I'm pressing you deep into My heart. You are connected to Me. I will and am healing all these things you are feeling. By My transforming Power, I will make you wholly Mine. Don't look at your feelings; keep looking at Me. Draw close and rest in My bosom.”

I saw that I was afraid. I was afraid Father would not tell me to go back home to the land, and I had to continually lay it down, and let it go. This email to Michael explains some of what I went through that first week:

Dear Michael,

I just want to share a few things with you.

I have felt this like disappointment of the consummation of the Seven very likely not happening. And there are other things, too, somewhat like that. But I have found that I just want to do whatever Father wants and if it does not happen, it is ok. I want what He wants. I just trust Him with whatever happens. I can't really put into words what I feel about it, but it is like a peace and rest in whatever happens.

I have felt afraid that Father won't tell me to come back to the land. And I have had to trust Him with that, too. It is like I am giving up the right to control my own life. I feel Father is working in me and I don't see everything, probably most all I don't see, but I know He is doing things in me. He's bringing me to complete trust in Him alone. I want to trust Him implicitly. Implicitly has one meaning that is, "unquestioning."

Also, I have seen I have been afraid of being lost, afraid I will do as...other people who have left the land. But it is like I have to let it go. I am Father's. Cannot He do what He wills with what is His? Yes, He can, and I let Him do His will with me. Worrying about something is not going to do it any good; in fact it creates things.

So, these are a few things that have been happening with me.

I love you, Michael, with all my heart. I ache for you, and I long for you. I don't want Father to go away.

Your little lamb

His reply:

Little Eleana,

Your processes are those that I have had to go through myself. As I put in the Vision post, my life is about trusting one moment at a time. My life is Father's life. I have had to feel things just as you feel them. I have had to make choices just as you have. There are those who must control their own destiny, for they cannot trust Father with it. They are bound up in their own self-conscious world and their gross self-interested imaginations. These folks are lost by their own definition that they really do not know where they are going. They hope that God will save them someday, but that day never comes. They are lost in their desires and sins. They spend their lives in regret and hope, but there is no relief. But we are not so. We are the Bride of the Anointing, married to the Father. We do not decide for ourselves, but trust the Father with us. We know that our Husband is well able to bring us to our expected end. No matter how hot the fire burns, we will not perish in it, for we know that the fire is Father Himself.

Fear not for the consummation, for it will happen. It is the consummation of the spiritual union. God our Father guarantees it, for those who have cherished the oil given them. What we need not do is expect the "consummation" to have to appear just as we think it will or in the time we think. We are consummated with Him. I am seeing this happen to some souls here in the land. Others are close to it. You seem in expectancy. You say that you trust Father more and more, and so do I. When it is over, we will be very joyful, for it will all be just as we would have wanted it, had we known the outcome.

Your Michael

During this time I started to see self sticking out everywhere and in me.

The first Sabbath after I came to be with my parents, we went out to the meeting in the land, and during the meeting I felt like I just wanted to take my heart out and put it in Michael’s, like it did not matter what all I was feeling I just wanted my heart in Michael’s heart. I wanted Him to have my heart. That night I wrote Michael:

My dear precious Michael,

I wanted to share something with you.

Today, I went up on the altar rock there. I thought it would be a good place to go. As I was going there I thought about how I am going to lay myself down on Father's altar. As I was going up the hill I thought of how the way to the place where you lay yourself down is not an easy way. And I saw how the hill you climb before you get to the altar is not easy to climb. It was really sweet to me. When I got to the top I laid down on the altar and spread my arms out like a cross. I am giving my self over to Father and letting Him do with me what He wills. I am abandoning my self to Him. I am yielding to His will. This is what I wrote when I was up there, "Daddy, here I am, on the altar of Your will. I am Your sacrifice. Hold me close to Your heart. Press me in. I need You. Pour Your Holy Spirit into me. I lay my self upon You... You are responsible for me and I trust You. O, how my heart aches for You. O, how I long for You. I love You, Daddy. I yield to You my life. You are my Fountain." When I was up there I felt this peace and rest come over me. I am letting my life go. Father is in control of me and I only want to do His will. It doesn't matter what I am feeling. He is my Truth and Life. He is all that matters.

I want to go deeper, and whatever it costs me I don't care.

He is the ache of my heart.

I love you, my precious Michael. I am glad I could see you today. It won't be long. I know it won't.

Your little Shulamite

His response:

I appreciate very much your sharing. Father cannot deny the prayer of a heart drawn out to Him. He cannot. He has answered you. There may be difficulties in your way, but He will remove them all. He is faithful and He is always there. Never fear.

Michael

September 24th I was feeling like I wanted resolution with the whole thing about the consummation with the Seven. I was feeling the intensity of being toggled back and forth between it happening and it not happening. I came to the place where I gave my desire to be physically consummated to Michael, to Father, and I didn't care what happened I just wanted to leave this world behind.

The next day I wrote this to Michael:

My Dear Love,

I love you! My heart longs for You. Father is taking me deeper and deeper into His trust. I am letting go. I am His. He may do as He pleases with me. He is the continual cry of my heart. Whatever happens I don't care; I only want to leave this world behind, my world, and be drawn deep into His heart. I want to forever be lost in Him. Here is my heart.

Forever Your Shulamite

When I read the conclusion of the vision I was very thankful that Father had brought it. In one way it was a relief from the process of being toggled back and forth. But it was hard for me in another way because I still desired to be intimate with Michael. But I had to continually give it to Father and tell Him, “Your will be done.” I saw with what Father had told me, that the consummation would happen with the Seven, that Father may tell us something and we believe it will happen a certain way, but we don't always know how Father will fulfill His word in the end.

I wrote this to Michael on August 26:

My Dear Precious Michael,

After I read the conclusion I felt very much at peace. It hasn't changed my mind. I still want to go all the way. I still ache for Father.

I love you, Michael.

Your little Eleana

He replied:

Dear little Eleana,

Yes, keep going all the way. You are not cast off. What I saw in the whole process is that there are some, who did not believe, and they made Father's working hard. They are cast off, for they have chosen their own way of defending their own selves. God is a mean, offensive spirit to them, and they want Him to leave them alone. Every purpose Father takes us through is for our good and our preparation. The Seven Messengers should now get ready for their work, by being alert and awake, and separating from every dark spirit of unbelief.

Your Michael

The next day I wrote to Michael:

My Precious Michael,

This morning I was feeling this ache in my heart very intense and I was greatly feeling my need of Father, and not being able to do anything about what I was feeling, but having to lay down completely and die to it all and let go. This song was on my heart.

You are the apple of my eye, Oh Lord
And I set my face as a flint toward You
Oh, how my heart swells with such desire
It's as a fire that wholly burns for You

Come and fill me up
Have Your way, my Lord
You are my True Love
I am Yours, my Lord

Then I opened an email Ami sent me yesterday and she made me a blog.

At the very bottom of the page it says,
"Now I lay me down to die, without a word, without a sigh
Trusting in my Father's quest; the only thing I know is rest."

It is exactly what I was experiencing and it encouraged me much. Truly laying down has been much of my experience here.

Yours Alone (I am alone, but not alone, for I have Father.)

His response:

Thank you precious little friend. Father is working for you and in you.

Your Michael

Later that day I wrote this in my journal:

Here I am, laying down on Your solid rock.
Here I am, Your yielded one.
Here I am, Your broken one.
Here I am, trusting You.
Here I am, believing You.
Here I am, no other I can do.

I rest in You, my Joy and Life.
I hold to You and let all others pass.
I let Your ache in my heart be.
I'll let.
If hurt, pain, agony, and heart ache come,
I won't let go the One I love.
It is worth all to have You.

I lay before You.
I lay with You.
I let You heal me, touch me, hold me, know me.
O, how I ache for You.
I let You be in me, work in me, through me.

I draw You close and hold You, O, my precious Husband.
I press Your heart to mine.
Skin to skin, I hold You.
I let You go deep and let You consume me in You.
I have seen You face to face.
No longer can I hold back my heart,
For I now know that I am Yours and You are mine.

Through all the pain, I'll come through victorious.
You are my Victory.
Victory has me.

Michael's response to me when I sent it to Him:

Truly little one, your heart is open and yielding. Your earth is letting you go, and you are happy to have it let you go. The old world that you longed for is the only pain there was. You mourned the end of yourself and of your natural things. You go to your funeral and cry there by your casket. But after the mourning is over, there will be only rejoicing, for the dead man you left behind, can no more draw you away to himself. You are free.

Michael

The first time I had laid skin to skin with Michael I became aware that I had this unsettled feeling but I could not identify what is was. It was almost like there was something in me that was not giving over to Him completely. And I had felt it each time I laid naked with Michael.

Thursday, I was thinking about it and wondered if it had anything to do with my mom and dad, and that I never really got permission from them for me to lay naked with Michael, except that they trusted Him. Even though I knew in my heart that Father had sent me to Michael, I still felt I didn't have permission. I felt like my mom and dad had control over me in a way, and I felt I wanted to be free. It troubled me because it seemed to keep me from fully giving over to Michael, like there was still a wall in between and I wanted it broken down. I didn't want it there anymore.

I emailed Michael about this and He told me, ”Yes little friend, I would say that you see it right. You felt a check, and it was probably connected with your parents. You are also young, and have been molested, and that probably added some uncertainty about what you were doing. But it was on you to do. You asked me a couple of times, and I know that I was free to hold you to me. I did notice, however, that you were mixed in your emotions. This is something that would be necessary for you to get clear about with Father and your parents… Your parents will never be clear about these things, until you are. You are mixed, and so they are mixed in their view of it.

Friday, I was feeling like Michael has described to us, of when the Angel comes to us like He came to Jacob to show him his whole life, and all we have to say is, “Angel, I see. Guilty as charged.” I wrote this to Michael:

My Dear Precious Michael,

I know I am guilty, but I don't condemn my self. It is who I am. But I feel at rest and I don't have to try to change me. It is ok. In this place of rest it seems all other things pass away, and I forget my self and my self's 'salvation.' I lose my self. There is no 'salvation' for my self. All my anxiety leaves, my constant troubling over whether I am doing what Father is telling me, my fear of being drawn out in the world, all those things and I think much more. I really feel I am resting. REALLY! It is like a deep quietness in my soul. When things come up in me, feelings, anxiety, fear, thoughts, if I let them go and lay them down instead of trying to resist them, they seem to disappear. It is hard to explain it.

Nothing is my responsibility but to follow Father and do what He says. How my heart aches for Him, and I need ever more of Him.

I love you, Michael.

Your little Eleana

His reply:

Little Friend,

I appreciate hearing how your heart is processing things. Sometimes a soul will do something that he is not really clear about, as you did. God does not condemn you, but instead, you learn from it. You learn to do only those things you are clear about. Things you are not clear about, will be on hold, for Father has not cleared them yet.

Your Michael

That Sabbath I read this and it was really sweet to me: “The prince of this world cometh, and hath nothing in me.”

That day things started to open up to me and I shared them in an email with Michael:

My Dear Precious Michael,

I just wanted to share what has been opening up to me. I was visiting Mother and we were talking about my email I sent to You Thursday about how I never really got permission, and my unclearness. As we were talking about it, I saw where it started and that was when I asked my mom and dad about laying on the bed with You. Deep in my heart I wanted to lay naked and skin to skin with You in Your bed, but I remember feeling like I couldn't. I also remember feeling afraid to. So I was mixed in what I really wanted. I was telling my mom and dad I wanted to lay with You on Your bed with Your and my clothes on, but in my heart I really wanted to lay skin to skin with You in Your bed. So that is when it started. It was so clear to me when I saw it and it made so much sense to me. My mom and dad probably felt my uncertainty when I talked to them. Well, when I saw these things I then wanted to share them with my mom and dad, but just could not. As I was laying on my bed in my tent I realized that I have a wall in between my mom and dad, and that is keeping me from being vulnerable and naked with them. I have shut myself off from them. I cannot be naked and vulnerable with them. Father is going to have to break my wall down because I cannot. Father is turning the light on, on things that I have never seen or known about. I forgot what evening it was, it may have been yesterday, but I was feeling my longing desire to be free of the chains I feel on me and my heart was just aching. I realized today that I was feeling the longing desire to be free of this wall I have put up to protect myself from my mom and dad. I am longing to be free to be naked and vulnerable with them without holding anything back. I think this is the same wall I have felt with You. It has bound me and now I want to be free, and Father is freeing me, or I know I would not be seeing what I have been.

As I was walking from Mother's to my grandma's, all of a sudden I started to whistle a tune. I then realized what it was and I heard Father singing to me: "Be blest, My soul, your Father's on your side. Yield trustingly, as I now bring you through. Leave all to Me to order and provide. Your change has come, I faithfully will prove. Be blest, My soul, your Best, your heavenly Friend, through well-thought ways gives your expected end." It was almost like Father put that song right in my mouth because I think I started to sing something else and then I all of a sudden started to sing that one. It was really sweet to me and it blessed me a lot.

He is responsible for it all and I am trusting Him. I know He is working and I am letting Him and not helping Him. I can't help Him. It actually sounds funny to think that I need to help Father.

I love You!

Your little Eleana

He replied:

Yes, little Eleana, and I have felt it from here. I knew you would not be coming back until you were free. This is the work that has been put upon you now, and the Father has encouraged you. Can you just accept your parents as Father? They are only reflecting back to you your own doubts and fears. Would you not want to free them? You have bound them up and chained them by your great faith in them chaining you. Let them go free little one. Let Father give them the freedom you want. Talk with them, and show them your vulnerability. Then they can receive vulnerability from you. Don't be afraid, for your parents will not hurt you. Neither will I. So it is a phantom that you are afraid of. You have stood in your own way.

Your Michael

I talked to my parents that night and shared with them my emails with Michael and His responses. They were fine about it all. I still did not feel resolved about it. But Michael told me that it sounded like they were just things in me that needed to be resolved now.

Sunday, I talked with my mom, and most of it was about her own personal things. I was basically continually telling her that she was wrong. As we talked, my mom said something about that she just wanted us to let her go and let her be free. When she said that, I could not see how I had been binding her to me. But finally, at some point in our conversation, I felt done trying to convince her how wrong she was. I just wanted to let her go. Then she started to change in what she was saying, and I just listened to her. A little while later my mom said, “Have you noticed something change in our conversation in the last 10 or 15 minutes?” I told her about what had happened inside of me. She had noticed it.

Later, I talked to Michael on the phone about this letting go I had experienced. As we talked, I all of a sudden saw it in a deeper way then I had seen it before, and I experienced a deeper letting go. I just wanted to love my mom and let her be who she is, instead of trying to make her be someone she is not.

October 4th I sent this email to Michael:

My Dear Precious Michael,

Father told this to me yesterday evening and I wanted to share it with You.

"Here I am, your Sacrifice. I lay with you. Let Me speak into you My Life. Let Me hold you. Let Me draw you. Let Me touch your heart. You are precious to Me, and I will not let you go. How I ache for you, My dear little one, My little Shulamite. You hath doves eyes, My eyes. You are fairer than the lilies. You are altogether lovely. You are My delight."

This is what He told me this morning.

"You are beautiful, My love. I see no spot in you. You are My pure, chaste Virgin, My little Angel and Messenger. O, how I love and adore you, My bride. Let Me ravish you with My love. Let Me wrap you up in it and consume you, and change you. Let Me shine on your face with My Glory, My Son. Let Me adorn you as My special Bride. Let Me love you like no other. I do not fault you. I just see Me in you, and love you."

This evening I was thinking about when you told me, that when I'm walking down the road and I start feeling bad about myself I can still always do what Father says. I realized that when I have felt bad about myself I thought He was gone and left me, and so how could I do what He tells me when I think He is not there? I was just seeing unbelief that I have harbored and wanted.

There is just no hope for my self. I am just as corrupt as the world is and my heart continually cries out to Father. I need Him. O, how I need Him. And O, how I need Him more.

I love you, Michael.

Your little Eleana

He replied:

I appreciate very much hearing how Father speaks to you. That is how I feel also. I want you to know Father intimately, but to do that you need to fully know yourself. I have seen you come to this time and again. You are more and more knowing yourself. When you are washed away, then only your True Love will remain. You will not feel bad again.

Your Michael

October 6th, Friday night, I came to the place of just letting go of everything — letting go of God, letting go of my salvation. I wrote this in my journal Sabbath: “Last night I experienced a deep abandoning of myself to Father in a way I have never experienced before. Like a complete letting go of everything; a letting go of God, my salvation, my self-protection, like a giving up of everything including God. Nothing matters when you give everything up. There is nothing to protect… With the experience I had last night it is like I let my chains that I have bound myself with, fall off of me. I let me go free, instead of trying to make me be good. It is hard to explain all that is inside of me.” That week I had come to the place of being my mom and dad’s daughter instead of the mother. I just wanted to help them. I accepted them for who they are. Friday night I had dreamed about them and in the dream we were having a meeting with Michael, and He was talking about those who were cast off and He said that my mom and dad were not cast off. I thought it was very sweet. I am not casting my mom and dad off either.

During the meeting that Sabbath morning, something changed inside of me, and instead of trying to figure out what Michael was saying and get it, I was just letting His words go into my heart and letting Father take care of the rest. If I forgot what Michael talked about, it was ok. Father was responsible for it. I just let His words disappear in my heart.

One day Shekel and I took my mom and dad's dog for a walk and I wanted to go see the Catholic church, so we went to the front of the church and there was a man there with a dog. He started asking questions and he asked if Shekel and I were staying with them, and at that moment I felt like I was talking right to the devil. I told the man "NO."

Sunday, I wanted to go to the Catholic church and see their service. So my dad, Shekel, and I went. It was the first time I have ever been in a church service of any kind. When we went to the church service I found out that that man we had met in front of the church was the priest of that Catholic church. When we first went in, the priest was having the people call him father. He said, “Say it again,” so the people said, “My father.” My dad thinks that he may have been drunk. I know one thing, he acted real weird. He talked about marriage and a lot of what he said didn't seem to connect to anything and it didn't make sense. It was confusion. He said some things that Michael has said, but it had a different spirit.

I was feeling very furious. At times it was stronger than other times. Shekel and I were standing at the end of the pews. I felt like I couldn't leave until I said something. Shekel also felt the same. At one point it seemed that it was about to end, and I was forced to go up to where the priest was standing on the backside of a table. He was talking about blood and bread. I don't think I was really paying attention to what he was saying. He kept on talking like he didn't even know I came up and was standing in front of him. I turned around and was looking at the people. Then I turned and looked at him again and then at some point this other man brought some water in a thing to him and the priest said he was now going to sprinkle peace on them. Then he took a scoop out of the water that the man brought and threw water in my face. It wasn't long after that, that I said, "Excuse me sir, you have much blood on your hands." He kept on talking like I wasn't even there. He was holding his head down almost like he was trying to hide. Then I spoke up even louder and said, "Your eyes are blind and your ears are dumb. You are deceived." As I was saying that, he stopped talking and was calling for a man named Russ. He was putting his head up like he was trying to ignore me. Then the man who gave the priest the water, said that I was disrupting their service and they asked me to leave. I didn't know what to do at first, but then decided that I should respect them so I started to walk back to the doors, and this man, I thought, was going to walk me out so I ran because I didn't want him to. I went back to where Shekel was, and was standing there for a bit, then a man came up to me and said that father (the priest) wanted me to leave. So my dad, Shekel and I left.

It was a very interesting experience. I almost felt like I wasn't even there, and I had no fear of them or what they could do to me. I didn't even think of what they could do. I know that what I did was not for anyone there but for me. It was something I needed to do. They have what they want. That is why they do what they do. It was very yucky and made me way more grateful for our meetings. Our time with Michael is truly full of Life and Light.

After I went to the Catholic church I felt like I shouldn't have and I thought about going to the priest and apologizing for interrupting their service. Every time I came to the conclusion that I would go talk to him, it left me, and I couldn't make myself go talk to him. I started to feel very confused and I could not tell anything apart. Then Father reassured me that it was ok what I did. I realized that the devil was accusing me of what I did and that is why I was feeling the way I was. I am letting Father take care of what I did and I don't feel I need to talk to the priest. I trust Father.

Tuesday, I was feeling like, “When am I going to be done? When will I stop going around in circles? When will I want to be done?” I saw that it would take a miracle, an act of Father, to deliver me.

Wednesday, I woke up and I felt I needed to be alone. I went for a walk, but I was feeling inside like I could not be quiet, like I was just full of noise, and I was stressing out about it. Then I realized that I could tell Father what I was feeling and that I could trust Him. I told Father what I was feeling and gave it up. After I told Father, I felt drawn to be alone and I could be quiet. This is what Father told me while I was on my walk. "Though you make your bed in hell, lo, I am with you there as well, and I will bring you out. I will take you up in My arms and press you into Myself. You will never see your earth, again. All you will see is Me. Trust Me, and I will do it." I had been feeling like Father was going to have someone take my place as one of the Seven. I gave it all to Father and gave it up.

Thursday I was feeling doubts, like I was just going to stay in this place of laying everything down and feeling like it was just going to stay the same and Father would not change me. I was feeling like Father would never deliver me, and He would not give me to pour plagues out. But I had to lay that all down, too. I want to let go of everything.

Something else I have had to let go, is Michael. I have had to let go of being connected to Him, being close to Him. I have had to let go of everything, including the Pearl of Great Price.

There is so much that goes on inside of me that I don't know if I could tell anyone all of it. It seems so hard to speak my heart, because it seems I don't know how to say what is in there. What I do say doesn't seem to come out in the right words.

My heart cries out to Father. I ache so much.

I shared the things upon my heart with Michael and He replied:

Yes, little friend, I know.

Michael

After I shared it with Michael I read the following and sent it to Him:

“Behold, I am with thee, and will keep thee in all places whither thou goest, and will bring thee again into this land; for I will not leave thee until I have done that which I have spoken to thee of. For oh! I love thee far to well to leave thee in thy self-made hell.”

He replied:

Thank you little friend. The universe will watch as you receive the desires of your heart.

Michael

Later, this song came to me and I sent it to Michael:

I can, I can, with the great I AM
I can do the unbelievable
I can, I can, and I know I will
Cause with Him all things are possible
Yes, with Him all things are possible

So, if God calls me to climb a mountain
I won't turn away
I'll follow Him
Cause by His strength
He will make a way
That's why I say,

I can, I can, with the great I AM
I can do the unbelievable
I can, I can, and I know I will
Cause with Him all things are possible
Yes, with Him all things are possible

His reply:

Little Eleana,

If you can, then Father can do anything in you that He wants to do. If you won't turn away, then Father will not turn away. If you can do the unbelievable, then God will do the unbelievable in you. With God, all things are as possible as you believe that they are.

Your Michael

Friday, October 13th, I wrote this to Michael:

My Dear Precious Michael,

The last few days I have been desiring Father to give me the conclusion to all that has happened for the past few months, to give me deliverance from myself. I realized that I can choose to step into Father's deliverance for me and stop wondering when it will come. I can step into it no matter how I feel. I saw that I don't have to feel what I feel. I saw that I just make what I feel up, and I feel the way I do because I want to feel that way. It is very simple. I can step into His resolution and stop living in and believing that I am not resolved. I can live in Father's reality, NOW, this very moment, not in the future. And "I DO".

Here I come.

I love you, Michael.

Your little Shulamite

Father, I yield to Thee my life
Thine only shall it be
From earthly pleasures, sin and strife
I've turned, O Lord, to Thee
Unfettered from all earthly ties
From cruel change and scorn
I haste to Thee, where shadows flee
Before the cloudless morn

Father, I yield to Thee my will
I would submissive be
Content to lean upon Thy breast
And hear Thee speak to me
Grant me a heart in tune with Thine
To see as Thou dost see
That each desire, each word and thought
May breathe, dear Lord, of Thee

Father, I yield to Thee my all
For now in Thee I find
Within the haven of Thine arms
A love most wondrous kind
My doubts and tears lie all behind
Eternal bliss before
Lost in Thy love and wholly Thine
I'll rest forevermore

You are my Vision, O, Lord of my heart
Nothing can be to me all that You are
You are my best thought, by day or by night
Waking or sleeping, Your Presence my light

You are my Wisdom, You are my true Word
I ever with You, and You with me, Lord
You, my true Father, and I Your true child
You in me dwelling, and I with You one

You are my yielding, my Sword, and my Might
You are my Dignity, and my Delight
You are my soul's Shelter, and my high Tower
Raise me on heavenward, O Pow'r of my Pow'r

Riches I heed not, nor man's empty praise
You, my inheritance, now and always
You, and You only, are first in my heart
High King of heaven, my Treasure You are

Husband of heaven, my only true Love
I rest in heaven's Joy - Your only Son
Heart of my own heart, whatever befall
You are my Vision, my Lover, my All

Precious morning, dawn is now breaking, how My soul ascends,
I see now the vision, nothing left hidden, all truth now blends,
Coming storm, great upheaval, though now no fear, and no more grieving,
How long I have waited, all things ungated, all My Sons are leaving.

Precious noon, now appointed, all is light, and there is no blight,
Close to My heart, I draw her in, her faith unfolding in My sight
My soul is stirring, in sweet remembrance, holding My true love,
I hold her face, looking upward, treasuring the promise above.

The bride's tears dry now, for I have applied now, My Own blood,
Her child's light, now in her eyes, always wise, escapes the flood,
My heart is opened, revealed, exposed, and all is plainly stated,
Looking up now, eyes wide with expecting, her breath now bated.

Precious night, darkness now showing, this place of settled glory,
Stars appearing, moonlight clearing, make bright the present story,
Warmth enfolding, precious resting place, for darkness has no fear
Dawning is coming, the light now awakens, all Sons now hear.

This is the day that the Lord has made, the day of His appearing,
The false hearted, shifty eyed, lovers of their stomach, ever fearing,
I see them no more, as the smoke ascending, winds blow them all away.
It has come from the bride, born out of her side, the Child is her Way,

No more darkness, nothing hidden, all exposed and made plain,
I stand naked, clothed only in brightness, all exposed in latter rain,
My songs are ringing, I'm ever singing, sweet melodies ascending,
Now all is clean, in promised drops, all sparkles in the transcending.

Precious bride, My love imploring, come upon My promised bed,
For I Am on you, enfolded in you, eyes meeting, earth fleeting and dead,
Lay upon Me, now hold Me closely, never let Me leave your room,
You now know Me, never doubting, Child conceived within your womb.

Growing now, showing now, made all in all, in the present dawn,
The rod of iron, now clearly ruling, eyes flashing, now sword drawn
Son coming out now, standing tall now, His brightness fills the room,
His Voice awakens, now greatly brightens, driving away the gloom.

He mounts His horse, white in the glistening light, muscles protruding,
The others follow in close succession, now the faithless fear intruding,
The steed rears back, one with the Son, knowing now the time is here,
The sickle thrust in, the earth in its harvest, blood flows, all souls fear.

The brightness increases, the heat releases, souls pale, others are black,
No more appealing, now no more concealing, the heavens roll back
For the Voice of the One, sitting on His horse, now shocking, then shaking,
No more intercession, no more succession, all things now quaking.

The bride is now quiet, in her repose, in her Husband's bosom lying,
Now she knows, her face glows, for in her garments no more trying,
Strangely quiet, waiting, watching, delivered by her rising Son,
Her heart connected, now ever united, for in this end, her battle's won. Michael

[The End of Eleana's Testimony]