by Christianna

Blow the trumpet in Zion, sound (shout a war-cry) an alarm (to sound a signal for war or march) on My holy mountain. Let all the inhabitants of the land (wilderness, pasture, uninhabited land) tremble (move) for the day (time) of the judgment of the Lord is coming (to bring to pass, to lead in, to bring in, cause to come in, cause to come, to be brought, brought in, to be introduced). It is close (of personal relationship, to bring near, present, enter into, come, draw) at hand. A day of darkness and gloom. A fire [God's anger] devoureth (to be wasted, flesh destroyed [Could this be a sore?]) before them; and behind them a flame (tip of a weapon) burneth (to scorch, burn, blaze): Joel 2:1,2,3

My most precious Family,

It's on my heart to share with you how the Consummation of Judgment is unfolding to me, in my own personal experience. I want to bring you into it with me so you too can see the picture that has been opening, and be brought up with me to the intensity of desire that Our Husband is longing to give us. Without this, you will completely miss what God is doing right now, and miss the privilege of entering into the Vision and being REALLY married to God, instead of just "spiritually speaking" married to God. This is for you to enter into, with me.

In the early morning hours of December 8, Father awakened me and put the prayer in me, "I want You to come deep inside of me." He was drawing me to feel that I needed something deeper, and then He drew me to Michael's window to pray. After a short time, Michael awakened and looked out his window and saw me. He invited me in and we shared together for quite some time about what Father had been doing, and then I shared with Him the prayer that Father had put in me.

The Grief of Father

As Michael was answering my prayer, Father took Him "away" for about thirty seconds. It was like He was out in the universe somewhere and was feeling a great, sad cry going out through the universe, while waves of grief were coming out of the Father's heart. It was like Michael was hearing the Father wailing with intense sorrow. While He was "away", something from Father came into Him deep, and He felt like everything else in Him had been emptied out and He retained no vital emotional energy. Then Michael was back with me.

As we visited together following this experience, we began to get in touch with the causes of this great, grieving cry of Father's heart which Michael had felt so acutely. The vivid picture starting to unfold to us, was a picture which was full of pain to the sensitive heart of God. The picture was that this Bride of God, this Woman in the Wilderness, was very content to be in the presence of her heavenly Husband, Michael. She was beyond happy to have Him around. Yet even though she just loved being with Him, hearing Him speak, and having Him in her midst, by her own words and actions, she hadn't let God bring her up to where He was — in His climax of desire for her. This Bride wasn't with God where He was. It had been very painful for God to leave this Woman in the Wilderness in her satisfied state, but true to His character, He had only been able to give her what she had asked for. This Bride DID NOT realize the great loss she was sustaining by not having the heavenly Husband bring her up with Him in His vision and His intensity of desire for her.

As this picture continued unfolding, another element of Father's great grief began being made manifest. God was feeling His Bride's fear of Him. Deep down inside she was still afraid of Him. After baring His heart and pouring out all of His personal love and tender care on this Woman in the wilderness, she still wasn't able to feel completely free and comfortable with God, and He could feel her uncomfortable self-consciousness and self-protection. When Michael "was taken away" for that brief time, it was like He was acutely feeling Father's intense sadness and grief against self-consciousness and self-protection and fear, because they were keeping Him from being deeply intimate with His Bride. It is like Father had oceans of love, but He was being shut out of the universe He had created to love. Self-consciousness and fear were keeping those whom He intensely loved, protected from feeling and knowing and responding to His heart for them. As long as you have agreement with the demons of fear, self consciousness and self protection, they won't let God or His Son into you deeply, and they won't let you go deeply into Him or His Son either.

Father's cries of sadness and grief touched upon me personally. He was crying for deeper intimacy with me. He could feel that I was still afraid of Him. Michael spoke very tenderly with me, sharing with me that He could feel it, and He said, "I just don't want that for you. There's nothing to be afraid of. I'm not going to hurt you." I could tell that it was painful for Michael to feel His Bride in that place, and to have to be around that spirit of fear, which came from self-consciousness and self-protection. I could feel that He wanted something so much better for me. He told me that He didn't want me to have that fear of Him anymore.

Michael had expressed His desire to me before, that I be free with Him, but I had always been ultra careful not to "intrude" or be "a bother." He had told me before, "You know, you can come visit me." But I just wouldn't. Even though I had felt so greatly drawn, I just felt like I couldn't act on the drawing, unless I was just really driven to by Father. I was seeing now that it had been because of my self-protections. At the time I wouldn't have described it that way. I had just felt "blocked" and I didn't know what the "block" was.

As Michael shared His heart with me, the desire was awakened deep within me to feel the intensity of His true heart's desire for me. I was no longer content just being with Him. I had to be brought up to feel the intensity of what He was feeling, the intensity of His heart's desire for me. I wanted to be right with Him. I asked Him for this miracle, and He gave me this desire that Father had awakened in my heart. He brought me up with Him where He was, and I felt the intensity of His drawn out desire for me. "He brought me up out of a destructive prison, out of the miry clay, and set my feet upon a rock, and established my goings (going forward). Psalms 40:2, KJV with Strong's definitions.

Being brought up with Michael where He was, put me in a place to fully enter into another element of Father's great cries of grief that Michael had felt. He said it was like He was feeling Father's heart for having to pour out the plague, while knowing that this judgment wasn't going to help. It wouldn't bring those who received it, to repentance. Father gets no pleasure out of people reaping the full destructive effects of what they have deliberately chosen, and Michael was feeling the grief of Father. For two or three days prior to this, Michael had been strongly drawn out that the first plague be made manifest, that the sore appear in its fullness in the earth. But Father wasn't being able to go against Himself to do it.

My Covenant with Father

Later that morning, I went out for a long time and sat on the Altar rock considering all that my precious heavenly Husband had just told me. I just wanted to write it all out because it seemed significant to me. As I considered, I realized that my Husband had actually asked me for something. He hadn't presented it that way, but I realized, "My Husband has asked me for something. He wants me to be completely free with Him, and I'm going to give Him what He wants. He does not want me to be afraid." As I realized this, everything in my heart desired to give my heavenly Husband what He had asked for. The quote came to my mind that God's bidding is our enabling, and I purposed to take my Husband at His word. His word of entreaty to me was, "Don't be afraid of me," and I felt, "Okay, I won't do that anymore, PERIOD."

A few days before, I had listened to one of Michael's talks from 2001 and He had said, "When people give away to God all that they possess, houses, lands, wives, husbands, and children, they also are given the ability to yield up their self-consciousness. Then you become God-conscious. That's all you have is His consciousness. You're just conscious of Him." June 23, 2001

This struck me as a most sweet promise from heaven for the current moment. I knew I had given away everything, and now God was saying to me personally that He was giving me the ability to lay down the fear and self-consciousness and self-protection that had always made my lips twitch, my heart thump, my whole body tremble, and my mind imagine how stupid I must look. In their place, I would get being conscious of Father's sweet mind of peace, rest, and calm repose. Instead of the spirit of fear coming in me, the Spirit of Love would be coming in its place. Anyone who has experienced being totally bound by fear, self-protection and self-consciousness, can appreciate and comprehend what a precious gift such a deliverance would be.

Now, as I sat on the Altar rock and considered these things, I wrote in my little journal book:

"Father, all that You have purposed and designed in this Consummation of Judgment, please bring to pass."

"Husband, I'm so needy for Your help."

Father then presented the question to my mind, "What is it that the Bride wants now?"

What flowed out of my heart was, "Husband, open up Your mysteries to me — I want to see what You're looking at. What do You want to happen — what is Your will?"

Father's immediate answer was, "Bring the plague down. The Bride has to bring the plague down."

"Oh Father, it is on my heart to write these things out for the church. Will You help me? Prepare me to come with You in Your purposes. Father, I just have to receive all that You are wanting to give me. Put Your desires in me and I will speak them. Come down on me. I will be faithful — I only want Your will to be done. I have to be right with You, Son of God, anything less is repulsive to me."

"Father — Michael wants this self-protection, this self-consciousness, this fear, to be gone from me. I want to honor my Husband's request. I move on His desire for me. I trust His Word, I honor His request. I am formally, before You and the Universe, decreeing to not entertain and have agreement with these demons anymore. Just as the delivered drunkard refuses to take a sip of alcohol, I'm committing my soul to NEVER, EVER having agreement with those demons again. I agree to NEVER sleep with them again — I WILL BE FAITHFUL, Husband, I WILL obey. Self-protection SHALL NOT have dominion over me — that's the Word of God."

As I was considering how very easy this was, how easy it was with all of my heart to give my Husband what He asked for, I realized what a plague self-protection, self-consciousness and fear had been in my life. All of a sudden I realized, "The plague! This is my plague. I have to pour out my plague! I'm sitting in the very place where the plague was poured out! And I'm going to pour out these things that have always plagued me, and that my Husband wants me to lose forever.

"Father, here I am — in the place where the first plague was poured out, pouring out ALL my self-protections, self-consciousness and fear (not trusting God)." How could I have fear if I was trusting God????

Father's words then came to me: "You shall decree a thing and it shall be established unto you." To decree a thing means to "to cut off" a thing. So I just wrote out this statement in my little book: "I'm divorcing you. Yesterday I got a divorce from my earthly marriage and that is my token that I am divorcing my earth, I'm divorcing you — fear and self-consciousness and self-protection."

"Father, I won't protect myself from You ever again. I promise. I make this decree. Keep me in it, Friend, for I cannot keep it without You, but with You, ALL THINGS ARE POSSIBLE."

"Michael, I will not squander Your sacrifice for me — You have given ALL for me to enter into this marriage. I feel it, and I give ALL to You." I felt such love for Him, that I would do anything for Him, and give Him anything that He asked for. I thought, "He does not want me to be afraid, so I WILL NOT be afraid. I will not do this to Him." It was that simple. Michael sacrifices beyond what we know, for all of us, continually, and I knew of His sacrifice for me personally. He has spent hours with me, drawing me into Father's heart, gently putting His love into me so that I would know how loved I am by God, and I knew He sacrificed when He did that. And He had just given everything to bring me up with Him where He was, to experience the present reality as He experienced it. I thought, "I will not squander His gifts to me. He wants me free." I felt like I would die a thousand deaths, to give Him what He had asked for. My faith was that I was going to fulfill my Husband's desire for me, and not have this fear, self-consciousness and self-protection in between us. And it was all for Him. I wasn't thinking about me. It wasn't like, "I don't want this stuff anymore!" No, it was, "My Husband desires this for me." He was desiring that our divine communion together be uninterrupted with my earth.

"Father, sharpen me, give me clarity, open this up to me. Father, I will follow my instructions."

"Establish me, Father, in this decree."

As these words rang in my mind, it kept coming to me to decree it out loud. Decreeing it was just not writing it down, it was speaking it, announcing it, proclaiming it. So I stood up and raised my right hand and poured out my plague of self-protection, self-consciousness and fear. I turned in every direction as I poured. I didn't look at my little black book, but as I began speaking, this plague just poured out of me. I don't even know what all I said, but it poured out of me for several minutes, just saying it like it was, as I divorced my old familiar spirits forever. As I was standing up there I thought, "This is just pouring out of me!" I was conscious that it was Michael who was decreeing these things out of me. It was Michael's words that were pouring out of the golden bowl of His Own faith in me, that were decreeing this new reality. It was His faith within me which knew that I was going to fulfill my Husband's desires and not have this stuff in between us. It was all for Him. I was doing this because I knew that is what He desired for me with all of His heart.

When I was done, I sat down, and as I was thinking and writing some more, I started feeling like, "This sore has something to do with me personally." I could just feel it. I wrote, "Somehow I feel intimately connected with the sore being poured out." Then it started coming to me about my Husband's desire, His strong desire that that plague be manifested, and I began feeling, "My Husband has to have this!" And, at the same time, I was also realizing that I had just poured out what had plagued me all of my life. I had just poured out my sore. It is so awesome to me how unplanned, how super natural it was. I didn't go up to the Altar rock thinking, "Oh, I'm going to pour out my plague." That wasn't how it was. I knew when it was happening, that it was significant.

When I came back from the Altar rock, I was just sure that Michael would want to hear this. He had his sign on the door and he was at his computer, so I just told him I would connect with him later. I didn't know it then, but during the very time I had been up on the Altar rock, he had been writing out the knowing that Father had given Him in the night, describing the true nature of the sore.

During the rest of the day, I pondered how the plague, my sore, had come pouring out of me, quite apart from some conscious knowing that I should go do that. It had just come. The knowing kept growing in my heart that I was connected with the sore. I had never had that knowing before that morning. And, it had everything to do with my covenant I had made with Father up on the Altar rock to divorce fear, self-consciousness and self-protection. Instead of those spirits appearing in me, putting their seed (thoughts and feelings) in me anymore, they were now going to have to appear (put their seed) in the earth, because I had poured them out there. I felt, "If I'm not faithful, that sore won't be manifested." Being faithful, would be not letting those spirits come in me anymore (not letting them put their seed in me anymore). I had no Bible verse or anything else to tell me this was true, or prove it, but I was seeing that I was the one who would make that sore come, because it had been my own personal sore.

I was also seeing that it would be the same way with every angel who pours out her plague. The angel who consummates with Michael in order to receive the wrath of the Lamb, Michael's wrath, which will enable her to be freed from her plague, is the only one who can bring that plague to pass. That plague is who she has been, and she is empowered to forever release it, through Michael's personal, intimate Word of desire in her. Then, she must bring the plague to manifestation in the earth. She brought it to manifestation in her earth by believing in it within herself, so now she would be bringing it to manifestation by believing in it having been all poured out into the earth. And, she would be enabled to bring it to pass because she had received Michael's wrath for it into herself.

In the late afternoon on Friday, I went and shared with Michael what had happened while I was at the Altar rock earlier in the day. As we shared together, we both realized that early that morning He had given me the sore to pour out, and then the wrath of the Lamb with which to pour it out. Father's cries of despair in the universe, had gone into me through Michael. That's what Father gave me through Michael, the agonizing grief that had made His heart so sore. I said to Michael, "Remember, you said in a meeting that the Seven just couldn't pour out what they wanted, they had to know Your heart, and be one with You, and pour out Your heart. If out of themselves they poured out something, it would destroy them." That's when we were realizing that Father had given me the plague, through Michael, the sore — Father's sore grief over my fear, self-consciousness and self-protection. And then the wrath of the Lamb had been aroused in me when Michael brought me with Him in His true desire that fear, self-consciousness and self-protection no longer be between us. This is why Father came down on Michael so strongly, insisting that the Consummation of Judgment occur, for that is when Michael brought me up to the intensity of His wrath against fear, self consciousness and self protection. Nothing happened until I was brought up to the place of His desire for me. To really get a transfer of His heart, I had to be brought to the place that He was. Michael was saying, "My wrath comes against those things that separate you from the love of God, those things that block you from responding to and receiving the depths of My intimate, invasive love." The wrath of the Lamb wasn't in me, until then. It is really awesome, because there is no way I could have gotten this where I was. God HAD to do something for me. HE brought me to His Own experience, and put His heart in me. And He will do this for anyone who HAS to be intimate with God.

Father's desire has been to have deep, vulnerable intimacy with every soul, but He has been shut out of His Own universe. In those cries of sorrow that Michael felt, Father was saying, "My grief at being separated from My people, cannot be contained anymore. My people have to know Me intimately — the whole congregation. They have walls of self protection, walls of fear, walls of self-consciousness, and My heart cannot bear this grief any longer." I was seeing that fear and self-protection is what had given me a legalistic religion which had bound up my soul by making me all conscious of myself, and focusing on whether I was doing the "wrong thing" or the "right thing," whether I was being extra "careful" enough around God so I wouldn't be in danger of Him being displeased or disgusted with me. God's grief was crying out, "I want you to be free from your legal religion, your self-made religion where self is continually protecting itself by trying to keep the law real good so it can stay in My 'good graces.' I don't have any 'good graces,' I AM Grace. I AM a fountain of undeserved divine assistance pouring out upon all souls who know they don't deserve My help, but yet who come to Me anyway and receive from My fountain of grace, because they feel their desperate need and come with the self-surrender that simply accepts the blessing." (Isaiah 55:1 Amplified.)

Father's grief is crying out to His people, to those in the congregation who think they are married to Him but who have no comprehension of the deep intimacy and exposing vulnerability of real marriage with Him. His heart cries out at the obvious lack of connection between those oblivious souls and His Son, not because He is mad, but because He can't bear the extreme pain of not being able to lavish His all-consuming Love on them and have it be received, and reciprocated. Father is saying, "I just crave and long for My people to know Me intimately. I can't bear this separation any longer, it just breaks My heart to feel this because I love them so much. This is why I came down so strongly on Michael for this Consummation to occur, to finally and forever break every member of My congregation out of a 'spiritually speaking marriage' to Me." To Father, this had been His "grievous sore," that we were afraid of Him, and that we felt the need to protect ourselves from Him and act extra careful around Him, in a way we would not naturally act. This is what had wounded His heart with such grief. This was the grief of those sorrowful cries that Michael had heard going through the universe.

Arousing Father

After I went home, I was quietly eating dinner when a prayer welled up out of my heart to Father, "Bring the manifestation of the sore." As soon as that thought came, Eleana said to me, "Aunt Christianna, would you like to hear something I wrote in my journal while I was in Clayton?" I said, "Sure." She proceeded to read something to me that Michael had written some time before:

"Now, I say to the Bride, draw out and arouse the King of heaven. Do not let go until He is fully aroused, and the consummation of your expectation is realized. He is there with you where you are (what you are being given to see). Lay hold of Him and He will bring you to your desired end." I heard God speak loud and clear to me. "NOW! during this time, even right this moment, draw out and arouse the King of heaven." And I felt Him telling me, "You are responsible for the sore being manifested. I want you to arouse Me to do this now. Arouse me to bring this." It was His heart that I arouse Him to bring the manifestation of the sore.

No longer was the Bride just content to have God in the midst of her. "Oh, someday ... when God's ready, He's going to make manifest that sore, so I'll just hang out waiting until it happens, and then we'll move on to the next thing." No! God wants the Bride to pray for the thing that He had put on her heart. She now had been brought up to the climax of His desire, she was one with Him in thought and intensity, and now He desired that she arouse Him to bring the sore to manifestation. I wanted to see the sore manifested like I have wanted to see Purity leaping and jumping, for real, not "spiritually speaking."

I could hardly sleep as this was all opening up to me. In the early morning hours, I went to Michael's to pray. As I was praying at His window, all that was coming out of me, and it was just really starting to build in me was, "My Husband HAS to have what He wants. And He wants this sore to come. And Father, You just HAVE to do this. I just can't take 'No' for an answer." I had never prayed about the sore before, when I was outside of Michael's, and I had never had any intimation of the sore until the day before, when the Lamb of God brought me up to the intensity of His wrath.

Later, at home, I wrote out the essence of what the cry of my heart was while outside praying:

"My Husband must have His heart's desire. He wants the sore to be manifested so I am caught up in His intensity of desire for this to occur. I am a faithful wife, that's all I'm about. My Husband wants something. HE JUST HAS TO HAVE IT. I'm sacrificed that He may have it. Give me what I need to arouse You, Father. I must arouse You, I know You want this. I know also that You don't want it, it is a strange act to You. Oh Father, I need an act of God to bring about the manifestation of the sore.

"I will make this sore manifest — it's my intensity of desire that will bring it, and that intensity of desire is that my Husband has what His heart desires. The same intensity of desire that was given me to be one with Michael is the same intensity of desire that will manifest the sore. If I am diverted the sore will not come. The manifestation of the sore has everything to do with me being faithful to the covenant I made with You while pouring it out.

"The only reason this is going to happen is because You have put in the Bride an absolute and total consuming love for her Husband's heart's desire. She MUST give her Husband what He desires — it's her only heart's desire. I am on fire, I am consumed with desire for this sore to manifest. I am intimately connected to that sore being manifested. I have everything to do with it. I will die in the process if I have to, but Michael must have His heart's desire. I'm sacrificed for Him. I love Him so much. Whatever He wants, I'm going to do. He does not want me to be afraid of Him — therefore I will obey — I take Him at His word. My chest is absolutely going to burn up inside — that's what it feels like.

"Mother asked me, 'Who are you, and what do you do?' There is only one thing in me. There's nothing else I want to do or be. I love only Michael and I have only one thing on my heart, and that is to give Michael what He desires. Teach me how to be the wife You have always wanted for your Son. Teach me, and I will do it."

"Come down on me, Michael. Come, reveal Your mysteries to me. I must know Your heart and mind. The land must be included. Pour out of me that I can communicate what I've seen.

"Oh Land, wake up, feel the intensity of the moment. You are the Woman who has been satisfied to have Michael in your midst, but You have not let Him 'bring you up' with Him to feel and experience His climax of the ages in you, the consummation. There is so much more for you to have. Change your mind and don't be content to just have Him in your midst. Ask Michael to 'bring you up to his consciousness of reality.' You aren't even aware of the great loss you are sustaining right now in this present condition.

"Michael, this Bride is with You, speak the word only and it shall be as You desire. I'm pushing with You. I'm ONE with You.

"It's the same intensity of desire — of living faith — that moved Father's arm for the Consummation, that will move His arm for the sore to manifest. If you have never moved God's arm to bring something to pass with Him, you will surely not be able to be with Him in the seven final plagues which are going to hurt many people without bringing them to repentance, unless you allow Father to bring you up to the intensity of Michael's desire for you.

"It's not hard to get off yourself when you know that is what your Husband wants. What true wife on earth wouldn't go to the ends of the world to give her most beloved Husband what He desires with all of His heart?

"Sin has no more dominion over me, only what my Husband desires is all that matters.

"Father, I cannot help it, I want to come with You, I want to be right with You, feeling You, sensing You, moving with You, dancing the dance of reciprocal faith with you. Oh Father, know my heart. Put Yourself in me, take me deeper, cause me to know You as I am known, even as You know me.

"Bring this earth to its conclusion. Help me arouse You. Help me, Husband, to bring You to do this strange act. Father, EMPTY me. I must have only You. I cannot have anything else in me, only You. I cannot bring baggage to Your bed. NO! You deserve better than that. This is all coming out of this love You put in me for my precious Husband. This is all Your love that You have put in me.

"Husband, we can't stay here much longer, our strength is almost gone, this world has to end. Yet, I will let nothing divert me. It's so on my heart to be a faithful wife. I long to have more of You in me to give back to You.

"Give me power to prevail with You. Give me Your intensity of desire for what You want brought to pass."

The next day, Sabbath, December 9, I was strongly impressed to listen to the talk Michael gave in August of 2002. That is the meeting where He shared with the church that He couldn't read the Scripture calling the birds of prey to the feast of the great God, because the church wasn't ready. It's interesting to note that this talk was born out of the lack of interest that the church manifested during the time Father had originally put it on Him to read that Scripture of judgment. That judgment couldn't proceed as planned because the church wasn't with Michael in His climax of desire.

During that time I had gone up to Michael's camp because I was so drawn to be there when He read that Scripture. That time was the little practice run for this time of Judgment which we are in now. The whole theme of Michael's talk was about the principle of arousing God. Now I was feeling like, "The Sore HAS TO COME! And, I just HAVE to include the church in this so they can pray with me." Here are some of the excerpts that spoke to my heart about arousing God:

The Moon enters Cancer
August 8, 2002

Some of you may have been under the impression that God decides to do something and so He does it. But it's not quite that way. What happens is a person is aroused to their need (We need a real, actual, factual, literal sore,) and then they arouse God to the solution. God must be aroused.

Daniel was aroused to the need of the times (the plagues being poured out and manifested). He saw time was up. And that the children of Israel [Land of Travesser] needed to go out of Babylon [their earth] back home [Heaven]. But he spent twenty-one days arousing God.

Babies [the manifestation of the sore] aren't made by God alone. God does nothing except He reveals it to His servants the prophet [His wife]. And He does nothing except His people are doing it with Him. Too many times people look at God like they're waiting for Him to do something. But they haven't aroused Him.

In the pagan cultures, they understood this. You've gotta get God up. But why is it that true believers haven't understood it? You've gotta get God up. He's sleeping. You've gotta arouse Him. And of course He knows the whole situation, He's not deaf and dumb. But this is to show you how the process works that brings you to your desired end. God arouses you to your need (the sore must be manifested). That's what's happening today, but now you must arouse God. And you have twenty-one days to get Him aroused.

How do you enter into the end, the judgment? You enter into it. But, how do you enter into it? A popcorn party? Going to work?

You enter into it. That's what happens. You enter into it. That's what you're about. That's all you're about until you get home with your coat [until the sore is manifested]. Instead of handling it like the world handles things. Anyone can be a victim of circumstances. Is that how you think God works? Makes you a victim of circumstances?

Why did I come? Why am I doing this is the question in your mind. I've told you before. It's not to make somebody out of me. It's to make you Michael. But you're not made Michael by magic. You're made Michael by entering into me. That's how you're made Michael. I enter into you. It's the marriage.

In other words, something occurs. Something happens in you. Something's born into you. And one must be available.

"Therefore also now, says the Lord, turn and keep on coming to Me with all your heart."

But there is something the people can do. "With fasting and weeping, and with mourning until every hindrance is removed and the broken fellowship is restored. Rend your hearts, not your shirt and return to the Lord your God for He is gracious and merciful." [He revokes His sentence of evil when His conditions are met.] "Who knows but what He will turn, revoke your sentence of evil, and leave a blessing behind Him, giving you the means with which to serve Him."

Truly a person cannot do this of themselves. But a person can ask all by himself. A person can go to the Father and ask. But, no, you can't put it in yourself. But Father can put it in you. But it'll cost you. Cost you everything. Just like I said before.

So He's arousing you today to know Him. Arousing you. Getting you aroused so that you can arouse Him.

Be it to you according to your faith.

It's not by sight that these things are accomplished. It's when our will is put into action and we do what has been put on our heart to do. But if you're happy, nursing your caboose, and you're eating ok, doing fairly well; if you're happy in the wilderness and do not have this unction of the Spirit, the wilderness is where you'll stay (NO! this just cannot be. God forbid that that be our end). That's the law.

We're not getting on the good side of God. We're getting in bed with Him. We are God; His heart; His motivation; His power is taken into us. That's what it means to be a Son of God. Really, not pretend Son, or spiritually speaking Son, a real live birth out of the Father, Son, is what you are. In other words, whatever God wants, you want. You flow with Him in it. Few there be that find this.

Well it's when the wife wants a baby. A new thing. The woman [of the Wilderness] encompasses a man [the Man Child]. So a new thing. You go to God and get Him to do what you want [bring the manifestation of the sore]. That's a new thing. Instead of waiting on God to get you to do what He wants. God's asleep.

When we go to get God to do what we want then we're in a place where He can get us prepared to receive what He has.

He really wants this Woman, the church. He wants this woman to wake Him up [He wants her out of this snake pit, earth]. Where the Woman, the church, must appeal, must feel her need, her desire and appeal to Him for the answer.

The woman's in charge. That's how it is with the end of the world. The woman's in charge. Father's not going to do anything without her.

It's where I'm not going to eat or anything until I get this thing. It feels that way. It feels like nothing matters but this.

God wants to include you in Himself. Not just have you following this god around bringing the end of the world. This world will never end that way.

It's really true. The people of God bring the end of it.

Well start praying. Start appealing to the Lord. Not for twenty-one days, but until it's done.

What did Father say? If two or more of you agree on anything, I'll do it. If two agree on anything I'll bring it to pass. That shows how much agreement we've had in the past. But we can agree. We can say let's bring this to pass. Let's draw our Father out. Let's wake Him up. And let's, let's go ahead and die if He doesn't awaken. That's what it takes. I've done that a hundred times. And Father always answered right after I knew it was hopeless. That's exactly how it works. Right after I knew He wouldn't be answering, then He answered. That's exactly the law. I've gotten used to that. I've gotten used to knowing that after it's hopeless is when He answers.

If we don't have it [an all consuming love for only Him and what He is desiring to bring to pass], ask Him for it.

That Sabbath afternoon, after I had read these meeting notes, I wrote out the significant parts of it and I went over to Michael's and poured it all out on Him. I desired to know if He was still feeling strongly drawn out to ask Father to manifest the sore, so I asked Him, "Are you still feeling that sore on you, like you want the manifestation of the sore to come?" And He said, "No, that left me on Friday." And I said, "Well, it's on me now." He had put it in me. I could tell I was on fire. In some of my notes I wrote, "I feel like this is consuming me. I feel like my chest is burning up inside of me." After I shared with Michael, I went home and shared what I was feeling with the girls. I told them, "I can't be distracted. There cannot be any distractions here."

Coming with God in Judgment

In the preface to my testimony during the Feast of Tabernacles, Michael wrote that Father has made me to be the token of the congregation. "Tonight at midnight the moon encompasses the seven lights. The church itself takes hold of the vision of the consummation. Christianna is a representative of this very event. She became a Witness who was 'taken' along side as Messiah appeared to her. She was not 'left' desolate." Now Father has made me to be the Witness that the congregation will be "brought up" into Michael's climax of desire that the plagues be poured out during the Consummation of Judgment. The congregation covenanted to marry Michael in judgment. Fulfilling that covenant is working together, serving together, appearing together, being His companions in the judgment. But the congregation can only be Michael's companion if it is brought up with Him to His intensity of desire. This has not happened for the entire church yet. You will only be "brought up" to Michael's intensity of desire if you ask Father to do this for you. Without it, you cannot be with Him in His work of judgment and the pouring out of the plagues. Michael has sacrificed everything to do this for us, will you not avail yourself to enter into the Vision? Nothing happens until you are brought up to His climax of desire. Our power to pour out the plagues and hasten the end is in working together with the Son. We are companions. If the church isn't brought up with Michael, Michael can't work, because He doesn't work alone, He needs a companion. We are companions in Judgment. Only when you are brought up can He put His heart in you. There is a very specific reason for this, and it is because He is getting ready to do His strange act, and humanity and the universe have to see His aching, breaking heart of love that is doing this. It is not coming from a heart of hate, disgust or violence. It's not a vengeful God who's mad and can't hold Himself back any longer. The only way for the plagues to stand, is for us to see His heart of Love.

Several months ago Michael wrote: "When the Father in heaven gets naked, there is then nothing in between, and His fire will burn everything which is not part of His fire. The earth has previously been spared because God was clothed, but now it will be burned because the clothing is coming off." The Consummation of Judgment is Father getting naked. All of His clothing is coming off and He is being exposed, seen for Who He is. His most holy movements in the soul are being revealed as an integral part of the Judgment. God's never been more naked. This is truly the revealing, the revealing of these intimate things between God and the soul. In this light, consider the Act of God in marriage. God can't come unless His Bride is with Him. Father can't come without you. He can't come in Judgment without you. He can't and won't bring Himself up. If the Bride is not with Him in His climax of desire, He can't come in judgment.

God can't appear without you. We had an example of this when Messiah appeared in Wayne. Wayne was Michael's vessel, and Michael's work all of the years before coming to the new land, was to bring Wayne into harmony with Him. Michael couldn't appear in Wayne until Michael had brought Wayne up with Him. And then Wayne appeared with Him. It wasn't just Michael appearing Himself — it wasn't just God sticking out of him. No, Michael appeared in Wayne because Wayne was married to Michael. They came together. If the congregation isn't brought up with Michael, Michael can't appear. Father can't come in the congregation without the congregation coming with Him. We are His human vessel. You personally are His human vessel. God doesn't start appearing in you, without you appearing with Him. Your particular form of humanity has to be joined with Him, in order for Him to even appear in you. He can't even appear without you being brought up. You come with Him when He comes in judgment.

If you have not let God bring you up to Michael's intensity of desire for the work of Judgment, your first work is not to arouse God to bring the manifestation of the plagues, but to arouse God to AROUSE YOU, so His wrath can come in you and you can come with Him when He comes in judgment. One night, the prayer was strong in me all night, "Father, teach me how to arouse You. How to bring you up, and cause You to come in judgment. I don't want to be a selfish lover. What feels good to Your heart, what arouses Your intensity of desire so You can come to Your fulfilled desire, so that Your desire can be manifest?" Our work now is to arouse God to arouse us, so we can be with Him in the current work of Judgment. After this picture opened up, I was listening to the song, "The Sorrow of God." It says "As in the days of Noah...." I always thought that meant, men will be wicked, like they were in the days of Noah. Suddenly I got a different picture. God was loathed to destroy the earth back then, just like He is now. "I am loathed to do it again." That is how it is like the days of Noah. This is God's great grief. The Bride is being asked to overcome God's sorrow, to do it. It's much like the Consummation, overcoming Michael's sorrow to do it. It's like Michael was split. He was paralyzed. He couldn't go this way or that way. It was the Bride who had to move the arm of God for this Act of God to happen. It is the bride who must draw out Michael.

We are in the holocaust of God. Michael is continually yielded to Father's strong coming down for His connection with the souls Father is bringing to Him to consummate to the Spirit of Michael within Him. Ami is drawn out for hours at night and during the day, praying for their work of Judgment and supporting those souls that Father connects her with for the Consummation of Judgment. Mother is up many hours of the night and day, helping with writing out the unfolding mysteries of the Consummation of Judgment, and supporting the souls that Father connects her with for this purpose. The Messengers are strongly drawn out to Father to move His arm to bring to pass the Consummation of Judgment, for their own salvation, and for the land's salvation, so that the fullness of the Vision that Father has opened up to the land for this time will be brought to pass. Only a couple of others are drawn out in intensity of desire, and moving Father's arm for His vision to be brought to pass. Are you entreating Father to bring you up so that you are able to enter into whatever His consuming holocaust is for you personally? Do you feel self-consciousness and self-protection and fear when God gets too intimate for comfort? What is keeping you from being perfectly at home in the fires of God's consummation? Where is your mind all day long? What are your innermost thoughts and feelings focused on? What is keeping you from being a living sacrifice in the holocaust of God? Will you sacrifice yourself to follow Father's instructions to you, whatever they are? Is there anything God could ask of you that you wouldn't want to do? What wouldn't you be willing to do if God asked it of you? Are you asking Father to bring you up with Him to the intensity of His purposes for this time? Nothing less than going all the way with Father, and being brought up with Him to the intensity of His desires, will be fulfilling the covenant we made with Michael to be married to Him in judgment.

Much love,
Christianna and Mother

Addendum

by Anaiah Travesser

Yesterday, Friday, December 15, a very solemn and heart rending change occurred in Father's and Michael's relationship to the Woman in the wilderness. All during the Vision and the beginning of the Consummation of Judgment, They were doing everything in Their power to bring up the congregation to Their intensity of desire for her — to be Their companion in the work of Judgment and the pouring out of the plagues. Up until this time, They have been bending over backwards to bring up the desire of the congregation to enter into the Consummation of Judgment, but yesterday, everything changed, and They are desiring it no more. Months ago, the congregation said yes, when Father and Michael proposed to her the Consummation of Judgment, but now, where the rubber meets the road, the congregation isn't saying yes; her feelings aren't saying yes, her whole life and focus and purpose aren't saying yes, her body isn't saying yes. Now, as of yesterday, Father and Michael are no longer aroused to it; they are feeling nothing, and doing nothing now. It no longer has to occur.

Early last evening, Michael sent this email to His consummated ones: "Good night little companions in war. I will be still in my battle. I will wait and watch for the Father's continued revelation. I will listen for the Voice that has always led in the way of the consummation of all things. There is a resolution that I long for. I wait for the revealing of the mystery. I will only step into those foot prints that I know belong to the One Who guides every soul of His. Your Michael"

This morning Father awakened me very early and gave me the following words for the congregation:

Up until this time, the congregation has been content to hold hands with God and feel Him close to her, to have Him kiss her on the lips, as long as it doesn't get too long and drawn out and she begins to feel deep things that she didn't feel before. But she hasn't wanted Him to do "that sexual stuff" with her. She's "not comfortable" with the "physical." She likes having her nice, safe little devotions with God in the morning before she begins her day, where something she has read makes her feel good about her relationship with God, and she gets up from her "time with God" content and fully satisfied with God saying some sweet things to her that made her heart feel "drawn out" so to speak, but she has been TOTALLY OUT OF TOUCH with what Father and Michael have been FEELING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Did she expect to be consummated with God WITHOUT having to have sexual intercourse with Him, where she craved Him coming into her most private places? Where one touch of His hand in her most intimate parts causes everything in her to respond to Him, and she is aroused with drawn out desire for Him to touch her more? Did she expect to be consummated to God without craving His invasion into her privacy, her most private parts? Your physical body is a visible picture of your heart and mind and every private place that makes up who you are. Your feelings tell what you are desiring with your heart and mind.

Father, and Michael, have been INTENSELY DESIRING to have SEXUAL INTERCOURSE with HER!!!!!!!!!!!! Father, and Michael, have been INTENSELY DESIRING TO HAVE SEXUAL INTERCOURSE WITH EVERY MEMBER OF THE CONGREGATION!!!!!!!! They want to have sexual intercourse with YOU — NOT business intercourse, NOT religious intercourse, NOT friendship intercourse, where you hold hands and feel God close, but REAL, ACTUAL, FACTUAL, PHYSICAL, SEXUAL INTERCOURSE, where YOU ARE FULLY AROUSED, and you CRAVE SEXUAL INTERCOURSE WITH GOD, SO STRONGLY THAT YOU FEEL IT PHYSICALLY; where you MUST HAVE God take ALL of HIS clothing off, and you CAN'T WAIT to take off all of yours, because you can no longer stand to FEEL anything in between you and God; it is harsh and abrasive and unnatural to you, and IT JUST MUST COME OFF. You cannot bear to have all that STUFF between you any longer! You have lost all toleration for it!

With such strong desire and such drawn out longing THAT YOU INTENSELY FEEL IT PHYSICALLY IN YOUR DEEPEST AND MOST PRIVATE PLACES, you desire to lay down with Him. You crave that He lay down on top of you, skin to skin, and put His WHOLE weight on you. With STRONG DESIRE and INTENSE LONGING YOU DRAW HIM TO DO THIS. You keep drawing Him and YOU DON'T STOP DRAWING HIM UNTIL HE HAS DONE what you are so strongly craving for Him to do for you — you FEEL HIS SKIN FULLY ON YOUR SKIN, and He is COVERING YOU COMPLETELY, and HIS WEIGHT IS HEAVY UPON EVERY PART OF YOUR BODY.

Then, YOUR CRAVING INCREASES, and this new found intimacy with God is no longer intimate enough. You are feeling the drawing for Him to touch you. You are desiring for Him to touch you everywhere. There is no place in your body, soul or spirit that you don't want Him to touch — no place you can even begin to imagine feeling uncomfortable with His intimate touch. You crave it. You crave HIM. Your whole being — body, soul and spirit — is drawing Him to touch you intimately. Your deepest, most private parts are feeling the intense longing for Him to touch them in an intimate way, to feel His sensitive, gentle hand moving upon them with the most tender caresses. You keep drawing Him and you don't stop drawing Him until He has done what you are so strongly craving for Him to do for you — He touches you intimately and with great pleasure, and your whole body is alive with responsiveness to His every intimate caress. You abandon yourself to Him. You delight in His pleasure of arousing you.

Now your desire increases, then intensifies greatly. You can no longer bear for Him to remain outside of your deepest parts, separate from your most intimate places. You must know Him, and be known by Him. You MUST HAVE HIM COME INTO YOU. You MUST feel Him moving in your most private places. You "come with words." You express your desire to Him, "I want You to come into me. I want you to come in DEEP. I MUST have You come into me ALL THE WAY! Then your whole Being begins drawing Him — your desire is on the stretch, you crave deeply to feel Him in you. The craving is so strong that you are feeling it intensely and physically in the intimate place you desire Him to come into you, the private place He has never been in you before. The drawing is way down deep in your heart, mind, and soul. You KEEP DRAWING HIM until YOU ARE FULLY AROUSED for Him to come into you, UNTIL YOUR DESIRE is so intense that you are experiencing it physically in the feelings of your body. "How my heart swells with such desire." You have only ONE DESIRE. You have NO desire to do anything else, or be anywhere else, but to be fully aroused and brought up to the climax of your desire for complete intimacy with God. In fact, you CAN'T do anything else. This is Michael's experience with His Father. He is always and deeply drawn out in communication with Him. Michael touches God, and God touches Him. He has intercourse with God in his innermost being.

When YOU are fully aroused with the intense desire which feels like you are physically drawing God into yourself, when your whole body is ALIVE with RESPONSIVENESS to His every intimate touch, and all your feelings are intensely on the stretch and focused on this one thing, THAT AROUSES GOD. God is aroused by your arousal. YOUR STRONGLY FELT AROUSAL is what actually begins arousing His desire to come into you. You are delighted with His responsiveness to your arousal. He is exceedingly precious to you. Every part of Him delights you. His LIFE BLOOD rushes in and enlarges the part of Him where His Seed is going to go out of Him, and come in you. This intimate part of Him DELIGHTS YOU, this private part of Him that has always been hidden to you until now. You are strongly drawn to encompass it and take it into yourself. You take Him into yourself. A flood of love pours out of your heart for the tender privilege of being this intimate with the Most High, the Faithful One, the God of the whole universe, and the Lover of your body, soul and spirit. Your spirit sings, "You, Lord, are my great longing, and my delight...and I love you Lord, and I love you Lord, and I love you, Lord, my God." "For what great (people) is there that has a god so near to it as the LORD our God is to us ('intimate with them the way GOD, our God, is with us')..." Deuteronomy 4:7 RSV, Message Bible. You feel His desire becoming stronger, focused, purposed, firmer, fully directed upward. The language of His soul is, "Hold fast 'til I come," and the language of your soul is, "I cannot let You go except You bless me (come in me)." You crave His coming — the coming of His Seed into you, new life coming suddenly from His most intimate parts and coming into you. "I MUST have Your words come in my mouth. I MUST have Your thoughts come in my mind. I must have your will come in my will. I MUST have Your feelings come in my feelings. You MUST be the ONLY ONE Who comes in me. I MUST have Your deeds come in my physical body."

You draw Him into your body, and His movements deep within you begin arousing you in a way you have never been aroused before. His movings deep within you also arouse Him. As you abandon yourself to His movings in your body, His desire increases in intensity. "With great desire (to set the heart upon, long for rightfully) I have desired to have intimate, sexual intercourse with you in this deep place." Luke 22:15 God's present version. And His increased movings deep within you, increase your intensity of desire. "As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God." Psalms 42:1. When the greatest longing of His pure heart reaches its climax of intense desire, He comes in you — and the longing that has been hidden deep within you, from your birth, is brought up to its climax of intense desire, and you come with Him! "When Christ, Who is our life, appears (comes, openly), then you also appear with Him (come with Him, openly) in glory. Colossians 3:4.

Note by Michael Travesser: It may be well to consider for a moment, sexuality. The following verses bring this definition to the front in the words used and in their precise definitions. Sexuality in man has been enormously perverted. Even biblically acceptable sexuality is often shunned and considered a necessary evil to keep the race of sinners going. Some souls equate any sex with sin. Sinners love to flaunt sex, and destroy its sanctity.

But consider: What is sex? It is the coming together of two individuals into a union with feeling and desire. This is what sex is to God. Nature is flooded with it. God wants to have sex with His human creation. That is, GOD WANTS TO COME TOGETHER WITH HUMANITY WITH FEELING AND DESIRE. Is this so gross? He wants us to feel Him. We want to feel Him. We want Him to come into us with His Spirit (SEED). God made sex so we might know this. It is His grand illustration of Himself. "That they should seek the Lord, if haply they might feel after (verify by contact, handle, touch) Him, and find (get) Him, though He be not far from every one of us." Acts 17:27.

Satan saw this, and made men seek gratification from other humans through sex. Satan wanted men to chase after the feeling of sex through any means they could imagine. This would take their mind off of God wanting to have intimate intercourse with men. Instead, humans would have intimate intercourse with each other, and follow this desire of the flesh, without understanding, reason, and self-control. Our present sexual perversions in the earth were directly intended to erase from man's mind what God intended, and to place in man a fear, an aversion to God getting too close to them, and too intimate with them. This aversion would cause men to protect themselves and build walls around themselves so that God or any other soul, could not come in. It has made a society of cold, protected, self-defended citizens. It is what causes men to wage war with no sensitivity to the needs and the situation of other souls. It is pure selfishness, and sexless. Religious souls have also built walls to keep themselves under control, and from feeling feelings they "shouldn't be feeling," and this has closed them off from God's feelings in them. While our human emotional dependencies should not be given to a human being, those things very well may be given to your heavenly Lover. If you love God in a right way, two becoming one with feeling, your relationships with people will be normal, and not confused. You will have power with God, instead of being the victim of a god you have created out of your own imagination.

Sex was intended for a purpose. It was intended for those who would be eternally married. It was intended for a man and a woman, so it would point to Christ and His church. He did not intend homosexuality, to point to God loving Himself and excluding His church. The child born was to represent the Son of God coming from the church. God wanted this union to feel good, and to express a vulnerable yielding to Him. The feeling of God's sexuality is not just a hot sensation in the lower regions of the body. It involves a nakedness of soul, a yielding of heart, and a sweet connection that makes two souls, one. The soul would have a trusting openness and naked connection with God.

So, when the following verses are read, do not wince at them or shun them. They just might break your cold, hard heart, and open you to the Father's precious vulnerability and open yielding. Instead of approaching Him with a cold fear, you may approach Him with a sweet, and tender feeling. You might actually feel something good, instead of cold terror, or offended pride, or legalistic obedience to your opinions. GOD MADE SEX. Let Him show you what it means. — Michael

The Scriptures

"My soul (life) longs (pines after, has desires, sore desires),
yea, even faints for (end, cease, be done, be finished, consume, determine, bring to pass, wholly reap, to be fulfilled, desire for climax)
the courts (as inclosed; to be surrounded, and thus separate)
['Wholly set apart for You, my Master, ready to do Your will.']
of the LORD (Yahweh, the self-Existent or Eternal):
my heart (feelings, will, intellect; center, the most interior organ; breast, midst, understanding)
and my flesh (physical body, nakedness) cries out for the living God."
Psalms 84:2.

"Behold, You desire (to incline to; will, be pleased with, have delight, move toward, have pleasure in,)
Truth (stability, FAITHFUL, trustworthiness)
in my inward parts: (overlaid or covered parts, the inmost thoughts)
and in the hidden part (secret, closed up, shut out, private parts)
You shall make me to know (familiar friend, + lie sexually with, kinsman, come to have) Wisdom.
Psalms 51:6

"I, Wisdom...
love them (have affection for, sexually [come together with humans in their most private places with desire and feeling]) that love Me (have affection for, sexually [come together with Me, in one's most private places with desire and feeling]);
and those that seek Me early (to search for with painstaking,
diligently, to dawn, early in the morning)
shall find Me (come forth to, attain, find or acquire, come, get hold upon, have, meet with, be present, take hold on)....
I lead (walk, behave self, come (on), continually, go forward, more and more)
in the way (well-trodden road, also a caravan)
of righteousness (rectitude, virtue),
in the midst (bisection [divided into two parts], center, within)
of the paths (beaten track)
of judgment (to judge, pronounce sentence for or against,
execute judgment, vindicate, punish, govern):
That I may cause those that love Me (have affection for sexually [a union of two with feeling])
to inherit (be made to possess, have in possession) substance (to stand out, exist);
and I will fill (accomplish, confirm, consecrate, draw, overflow, replenish, have wholly) their treasures (treasure house).

The LORD possessed Me (to erect, own)
in the beginning of His way (course of life),
before His works (performance; to do or make, systematically and habitually)...
was I brought forth (specifically, to dance, to writhe in pain, especially of child birth, to wait, bear, make to bring forth, make to calve, be much sore, pained, travail with pain, tremble, trust, wait carefully, patiently, be wounded).
Then I was by him, as one brought up with Him (in the sense of training; to foster, to render firm or faithful, to trust or believe, to be permanent or quiet,
to be true or certain, to go to the right hand, be faithful (of long continuance), stedfast, sure, trusty, (verified), nursing father): and I was daily (continually, perpetually) His delight (His enjoyment, pleasure to look upon, fondle [to handle tenderly, lovingly, or lingeringly; caress] rejoicing (to laugh in pleasure, to play) always before Him; Rejoicing in the habitable part (inhabitants) (to flow; to bring) of His earth (way, wilderness); and My delights (enjoyment, pleasure, to look upon, fondle [to handle tenderly, lovingly, or lingeringly; caress]), please, delight self) were with the sons (ones born, daughter, came up in, people, obtain children) of men (human beings). Now therefore hearken unto me, O yea children: for blessed are they that keep (guard, protect, attend to, lay, wait for, watch for) My ways. Hear instruction (properly, chastisement, reproof, warning, restraint; to chastise, literally with blows, or figuratively with words), and be wise (be wise in mind, word or act, exceedingly), and refuse (dismiss, expose, set at nought) it not.
Blessed is the man (human being) that heareth Me (to hear intelligently, with attention, obedience, witness) , watching (to be alert, sleepless, to be on the look out, hasten) daily (always, continually, perpetually) at My gates (door, two-leaved, figuratively, deliverance), waiting (to hedge about, as with thorns; guard, protect, attend to, lay) at the posts (to be conspicuous; fulness of the breast, abundance)
of My doors (an opening (literally) door, entrance way). For whoso findeth (to come forth to, meet with, be present, be able, certainly, come, get hold upon, have) Me findeth life (to live, revive), and shall obtain (secure, succeed, draw out, further) favour (delight, especially as shown, desire, be accepted) of the LORD (Yahweh; the self-Existent or Eternal).
Proverbs 8:12-35.

This is what it is like to have sexual intercourse with God. This is what Father, and Michael, had been INTENSELY DESIRING for the congregation ... until yesterday. After all of these years — six, to be exact — the congregation still isn't "sexually" aroused in their spirit, and she has not been brought up to Michael's intensity of desire for the work of Judgment and its Consummation. Father has had to feed you rectally in your paralyzed state, since you are not able to take strong meat. "She [the congregation] who has borne seven languishes; she has given up the spirit; her sun is gone down while it was yet day; she has been disappointed and confounded." Jeremiah 15:9 WEB. Young's Literal Translation puts even more graphically what has happened between the congregation and Michael: "Languished hath the bearer of seven [the congregation], She hath breathed out her spirit, Gone in hath her sun (Son) while yet day, It (He) hath been ashamed and confounded."

This morning as I was considering the life and death crisis that the congregation is facing right now, Father said, "Come with words." "TURN and keep on coming to Me with all your heart.'"

"Therefore also now, says the Lord, turn (come, lie down)
and keep on coming to Me with all your heart,
with fasting (to cover over (the mouth), x at all) ['cover' your mind, from every thought and feeling and activity that isn't My COMING in you*],
with weeping (to weep, x sore, x with tears, overflowing, (continual) weeping),
and with mourning (to wail),
until every hindrance [any obstruction that impedes (earth view),
or is burdensome, or immaterial that interferes with or delays action or progress]
is removed and the broken fellowship [My continual flow of communication in you] is restored.
Rend your hearts...and return to the Lord, your God,
for He is gracious and merciful, slow to anger, and abounding in loving-kindness;
and He revokes His sentence of evil when His conditions are met.
Who knows but what He will turn (turn back), revoke your sentence,
and leave a blessing behind Him, giving you the means with which to serve Him
[give you the means to keep your covenant to be married to Michael in Judgment,
be IN UNION with God in the Consummation of Judgment]." Joel 2:12-14 Amplified.

*"The effort of self must be stilled. But even more! The very existence of the self must be destroyed. There is something in this universe which is the very opposite of God; it is the self. The activity of the self is the source of all the evil nature as well as all the evil deeds of man. On the other hand, the loss of the selfhood in the soul increases the PURITY of the soul! In fact, the soul's PURITY is increased in exact proportion to the loss of self! As long as you employ your self nature in any way, some faults will also continue to exist in you. But after you depart from your selfhood, no faults can exist, and all is PURITY and innocence. It was the entrance of the self, which came into the soul as a result of the fall, that established a difference between the soul and God." Union with God. That is, it is the entrance of the self, which comes in the soul, that breaks the flow between the soul and God.

"Take with you (draw, infold, win with)
words (a request, promise, purpose)
and turn to (draw, lay, bring) the LORD;
say (speak plainly, x desire, determine, require, x expressly) to Him,
"Take away all iniquity (perversity)[turning from, willfully persisting
contrary to the evidence or the direction of the judge (Father) on a point of law (His view)
"Father, take away our turning from Your flow of the moment — Your present current of thought or feeling coming in us,
by our own mind being aroused and coming in us
(either with our own earth view, or with our own excitement added to what You are communicating)
instead of You coming in us];
receive us graciously (a good woman, READY)
and we will render (make amends, restore, x surely, make restitution, )
the fruit of (for breaking up, i.e. violating: x any ways [You are trying to communicate with us,]
by casting off, causing to cease, disannulling, making of none effect, bringing to nought, x utterly, making void)
our lips (vain words, through the idea of termination, conclusion [coming to a conclusion that's not from You)." Hosea 14:2.

"Your words (cause, communication, parts)
were found (properly, to come forth to, be able, catch, x certainly, get hold upon, have), and I ate them (consume, x freely, x in DEED, x quite);
and your words (cause, communication, x parts)
were to me a joy (welcome)
and the rejoicing (pleasure)
of my heart (used very widely as the feelings, will and even the intellect: (as the most interior organ): to be enclosed: ravish)
for I am called by your name (addressed by name),
Yahweh, God of hosts (a mass of persons [the congregation]:
especially regularly organized for war; specifically hardship, worship, waiting upon [God])."
Jeremiah 15:16 WEB.

The Sorrow of God

For those with ears to hear
A tale of ancient year
The days of Noah may be very near

In the days of old, there were great and mighty men
But their hearts were cold, their minds were filled with sin

Oh where is The Garden. Oh what has Eden gained
His beloved creation has turned His joy to pain

Oh who can measure the sorrow of God
Or tell the depths of the grief in His heart
When He finally proclaims to the hosts of the universe

My Spirit is grieved
I shall contend with man no more

My Spirit is grieved
I shall contend with man no more
No more

Such Desire

Bride
You are the apple of my eye, O Lord
And I set my face as a flint toward You
O how my heart swells with such desire
It's as a fire that wholly burns for You
Come and fill me up
Have Your way, my Lord
You are my true Love
I am Yours, my Love

Son of God
I am jealous for My bride
A sweet perfume you are to Me
O My Love, you're My delight
I long to have you here with Me
I say come, be filled
Come and sup with me
I have much to give
Take, eat and drink